Oh...this next week is going to probably be harder than my first week. I'm still craving food and feeling un-normally hungry. I'm sick of shakes, I want real food...even if it's whole wheat this, and low carb that. So long as it's something physical I can chew and has relatively good taste.
On the up side I'll be done soon, a LOT sooner than when I started. The down side, I'll have two days in a row of eating marathons. I'll just have to remember portion sizes and not go back for seconds. Which actually won't be that hard.
See, my mother next weekend is having a family dinner (this dinner may include chicken, steak, potato salad, green salads, cou-de-tat (however you spell it...it's just a bunch of veggies with dip, and maybe cheese), etc. THEN...the NEXT day...is my husband's family reunion. THAT...generally includes ham, turkey, hot dogs, potato and pasta salads, green salads, veggies, crackers, and a whole mess of desserts (man, I'm making myself over hungry just listing).
Anyways, I say that portion sizing won't be that difficult considering I never really eat much to begin with...it was WHAT I ate that probably made me overweight. I was very big on carbs and starches, which are bad...that and a LOT of pop. I'll admit, I was addicted to pop (thankfully I haven't had to have any pop in the last 22 days, and there's still 4 710ml bottles of pop in my fridge. Might have to use that to go with some Capt. Morgan next week :)
Anyways, I'm digressing. I'm a picky eater. I always have been. I had an incident a LONG time ago (when I was really small), where I got sick, and every time I ate, I would throw up. So now, naturally, I have a phobia of foods I've never eaten before. There were certain (unhealthy) foods I could keep down when I was sick, but whenever my mom tried to feed me something like peas, salads or beef, it would come back on me.
I have made the attempt as an adult to try new foods and discover new things. I began this "trial" when I was about 17, and that's how I discovered that I could not only keep chicken down, it was DELICIOUS! There are still some foods that I won't eat (that I've tried) because of it coming back on me (ground beef for example (unless it's smothered in taco sauce)), as well as ham and bacon (nom nom nom). And I've made a lot of progress.
Now, back to what I was saying about portion sizes (sorry, I've let my guard down and shared some rather PERSONAL things, but admitting them openly is a start to recovery). Because I'm still a rather picky eater, I will only end up with a small plate-full of food anyway. So, say at my in-laws reunion, I may have a teeny piece of turkey, and a whole mess of veggies (and maybe salad). I'll definitely have dessert, but will portion size appropriately there. My mother knows how I eat, and I love chicken, so she'll make chicken, and I'm going to help her cook anyways, so I'll know what foods I'll eat ahead of time (and maybe even make some food that I will enjoy (like no eggs in the potato salad (yuck)).
Wow, this post ended up longer than I though it would. Anyways, 8 days left to go, and I have something to look forward to. Showing off my (semi) slimmer figure to everyone, and a whole lot of good, tasty food :)
Oooohh, a motivational push might be wonderful now :)
Ma’iingan
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