Anyways, the reason I read them at all are for the very reason that this post is about:
This "Holy Love" site is Christian in nature (no surprises there). Here is but an excerpt from the latest email I received:
"Today, I have come to tell you that the disordered use of free will...is in danger of destroying the world as you know it."
I just had to laugh when I read this. I've been saying this for a long time. Many Christians get this twisted, sorted idea that "free will" only exists when it's THEIR idea of free will...the "will" their "God" imposes. "Free will" is just that...FREE will. Meaning the freedom to do what we wish, regardless of if it pleases or angers "God".
Will just doesn't exist in the form their "God" determines...that wouldn't be "Free" will, that would be "God's" will. So if you're going to state "Free" will when talking about free will, don't say:
"that is, free will which does not align itself with Holy Love"
That's not "Free" Will, that's THEIR God's "will".
Another beautiful excerpt from this proves my previous points on the character of "Satan":
"The free will of such radicals has been captured by Satan."
The very fact that they blame everything on a faceless, formless figure in the hopes they don't have to take personal responsibility for their own actions, and use "Satan" as their scapegoat. Satan hasn't "captured" the free will of any "radicals", Satan doesn't capture anything because Satan is a concept, not an actual entity.
The ideas and thoughts from these people are slowly but surely increasing my distaste for the Christian religion. Oh, sure I'll keep my thoughts and opinions to myself, unless I'm in company who shares the same views as me. My youngest sister-in-law's experiences with her grandmother only push my distaste even further. She (grandmother) proceeds to write my sister-in-law a letter pretty much putting her down (and kicking her while she's down) for having a baby out of wedlock and moving in with her daughter's father (of whom she is now separated from, for good). It's this type of mentality that pushes me further and further away from the church, to the point that I don't ever want anything to do with it. We've also stopped going to church as a family. No, it wasn't my choice (though I'm not going to throw a fit over it). No one seems to have the drive anymore to get up at the ass-crack of dawn just to go sit in a stuffy church, and watch buddy at the altar do all the work.
Things don't help though, that my children attend a Catholic school that is also starting to push my buttons. I was seriously considering transferring my children to a small private school not far from my home...what's stopping me is the cost for this school, which is $13,500 a year (that'd be $1,125 a month...a shitty part time job wouldn't cover that, and I certainly don't have the "education" needed for a job worth more).
I just feel that I may not be able to hold my tongue anymore...mostly the main reason I don't is because my husband holds true to his beliefs (even though a lot of the time he contradicts himself). I don't like getting in a debate with him, because we are both passionate about what we believe, and they're both on opposite sides of the spectrum. While I feel good about winning a debate against my husband in a religious nature, I also feel bad. I don't like to have to hold my tongue when it comes to religious discussion because many people don't understand where my beliefs come from (I'm not one for open discussion about my personal beliefs, especially when they're so taboo).
This upcoming election in the US is also making it difficult for me to hold my tongue on religious issues. I tried to write a response to a friend of mine who had moved to the US a few years ago, and discussing the presidential candidates made me realize just how Anti-Christian I am becoming. I don't like being anti anything...however I don't find myself to be as harsh or ignorant regarding many Christians as many atheists I've encountered. I still believe there are numerous Christians out there who are truly respectful to those who wish to believe what they want, and feel they are free to believe what they want, just as much as they are free to be Christian. But it's hard for me to believe that there are as many as I would like to think there is.
I used to respect my grandparents, for holding true to their beliefs...but after seeing the way they treated my youngest sister-in-law (who has done FAR LESS than her oldest sister)...they make me rethink that respect. I can't respect someone who outright tells someone they're going to hell for doing something that's completely natural for the human being. Respect has to be earned, and this is no way to earn respect. Respect can be given, but it can be taken away just as easily.
Ma’iingan
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