Test Stress

As you may or may not know, I am in the midst of taking a course on herbalism, homeopathy and holistic healing. I tell you, the road has been tough...not so easy as I thought. Taking a course you've paid a LOT of money for can cause quite the amount of stress, even though the site setup is almost exactly the same as some other classes I've taken (it's in a Moodle website), so it shouldn't cause me to be so nervous, because it's a familiar atmosphere.

While the tests are mostly multiple choice and true/false, it's getting the answers right that's driving me to stress. I don't want to get more than one question wrong on my test, as I need at least an 80% for a passing grade. One question wrong gives me a 93%. That's quite a drop, and frankly scares me a bit. I think when it comes to schooling, I'm a bit of a perfectionist, even though I'm quite the procrastinator.

As well, the reading material is quite dry. I feel like I'm back in 12th grade chemistry class. I know it's important to know what's actually IN plants to determine what they are doing and why, but I didn't think I'd have to be able to pronounce things like "polysaccharides", "lenoleic", "lenolenic", "gamma-lenolenic", etc. I can barely spell those words much less pronounce them (and I pride myself on my word pronunciation). It also doesn't help that many of these words, while having completely DIFFERENT meanings, look the same (like lenoleic and lenolenic written above). I'm just glad I don't have to do a definition test (yet!).

I'm getting closer and closer to the end of my course, and another stressor is building within...how am I going to get my final exam done? I need to find a "proctor" to oversee me doing my test. It's not an easy thing, especially for someone who doesn't like talking to other people (I'm a slight introvert at times). I've had far too many people tell me "no" in my life, that I've become distrustful of many people, when it comes to asking for just about anything.

BUT...I don't need to worry about that for another couple months. I think though, I may have a few ideas in mind when it comes to that time, but for now, I'm going to concentrate on my lessons (and believe me, the next 3 lessons are going to require a LOT of concentration...I'd say they're the equivalent of small books with a lot of technical information).

Just wanted to vent some stress (on a good note, I just finished another test and received 100% on it, so I'm really happy about that). Thanks for allowing me to do so.





Ma’iingan