I want to blog about this because 1) I need an outlet, and 2) there may be others out there who are looking to lose weight and are feeling the same way AND are Pagan as well. You don't really need to read this if you don't want to, this is just my outlet of how I am feeling.
I've decided to take control of my life and lose weight. I'm on a 30 day "challenge" I'll call it, to lose weight, by using a fairly popular weight loss program that has had great results in those I have seen (friends of my husband).
I'll admit this is hard. VERY hard. It's only day two and I am craving all kinds of fatty, salty, unhealthy things. At the moment, all I can think of is eating. Food is always on my mind and I don't want it. This is part of the challenge to me. Not only do I enjoy eating unhealthy things, but I run to food when I need comfort or am bored. So for me to avoid the things I love so much, is quite difficult. It also doesn't help that what I AM consuming isn't very palatable...BUT...I am continuing anyways, because it IS a challenge, and challenges are meant to be hard. If challenges weren't hard, everyone would do them.
Am I hungry at this point? Or am I bored, and wanting to run to food out of boredom and routine? I've had a rather filling shake this morning, but I'm overly looking forward to lunch just to get something to eat. This is just one of the hurdles I need to get over. I'm not starving, but my brain and my stomach want to *think* they are, just because it's what I"m used to. The moment I sense hunger, I run to the fridge or pantry to get something to eat...either make toast, eat cookies, find something salty and drink a LOT of pop. I need to develop a new routine that doesn't involve running to the fridge or pantry all the time. I need to understand that there are other things in life than eating food that are enjoyable. When I'm bored, I need to remind myself that I can go for a walk if I'm bored; I can go and play a video game, go walk around the mall and find pretty clothes that suit my personality. There are MILLIONS of things in this world that I can do when I am bored, and when I feel down and need comfort, I DO have outlets other than food to run to...especially my beloved blog here, and my readers.
Wish me luck, and help me to be motivated. Challenges are hard, and I intend to see this one through.
Ma’iingan
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